As I look at old pictures of me, I think "Oh how I miss myself."
I was sweet.
I was fun.
I was full of life.
I would give up just about anything for the ones i loved.
I was innocent. Now, as I look into the mirror, I think "Oh how I hate who I've become."
I am not nice.
I am not fun.
I am not full of life.
I wouldn't give up anything for the ones I love.
I am not innocent... and it hurts. This definately isn't the person I dreamed of being. Infact, it's the total opposite. How I wish I could go back to who I was, but then reality hits and I know it's too late.
This is me now.
This is who I chose to be.
This is who i've become.
I didn't intend for this to happen and I certainly didn't want it to. It really hurts to see how much i have changed in just one year of my life. I would do anything to go back into the past and make the right desicions, instead of the wrong ones, but I know I can't. Making the wrong choices doesn't only hurt you, it hurt's the ones you love, too. I can see it in their eyes. I can see the dissapointment. Not only in my descions, but in me. I am sorry to all the ones I've hurt. I'm sorry you have to see me this way. This isn't how I want to be seen or remembered. I want to be remembered as the sweet, innocent girl who laughs a lot, enjoys life, can make anything fun, always looks on the bright side, is carefree and has no worries...but I guess that is too much to ask for. This is no one's fault but my own. It's not my parents fault, it's not my friend's fault...it's mine.
I was the one who made the wrong choices.
I was the one who changed.
I take full responsibility and it's not an easy thing to admit either. If I could have one wish, I would wish to be happy with myself again... | 
